Monday, December 15, 2008

in case you haven't heard....

We're having a baby!! Due date Aug 3. I'm 7 wks along, I've been to the doctor twice, saw a strong heartbeat, and everything is looking good.

And here is a note on wrote on Friday documenting our crazy day.

December 12...I've dreaded this day since last April. Today marked the due date of my first baby that we lost. For the last several months I kept thinking about this day. How will I feel? Will the pain go away? As the day approached the sadness overwhelmed me. That was going to be the day (or around it) that I should have met our baby. Well, the Lord had other plans and we just didn't know it.

A few weeks ago we were shocked to find out I was pregnant again! Fear just shook me. What if I lose this one too? I can't tell anyone because how embarrassing if I had another miscarriage. I've walked through a cloud of fear for weeks. When I called my dr to schedule my first appt they said "We can get you in on December 12 if that works". Ok, this is going to be a really really good thing I thought or possibly a heartbreaking day if we don't find a heartbeat or see a baby in there. "Yes the 12th works great I said" In this last week I've listened to the song 'Your Great Name' countless times. Casting out the fear and proclaiming God's name in spite of my circumstances or fear. I just needed PEACE.

This morning I woke up with a mix of emotions. The original birthdate of my first baby, and the confirmation of a healthy pregnancy was just hours away. Zach and I headed to my dr appt rather nervous. They did an ultrasound and as clear as anything there was the little peanut and a heart beating about 160 beats/minute. PRAISE GOD!!!

Today will always be a day I remember. The end of a valley of darkness and pain, and the beginning of a new journey- another LIFE! A God ordained life that has been created!


Sunday, December 7, 2008

12 inches gone...

I love my hair. It's the one part of me that I really like. Maybe that's self-centered but I have less than the ideal body for a 24 yr old. Seriously! Never had a flat stomach. I used to be called thunder thighs. And I've had birthin' hips since I was 13! But when I see my hair I really think it is beautiful. Ha! It's naturally curly so it takes a whopping 5 mins. to throw some gel in it and I'm ready to go! I have always wanted to donate my hair at some point in my life. I had been thinking about it and since I hadn't even trimmed it in 10 months I thought now would be a great time. I made the impulsive decision last Saturday. I got on the Locks of Love website and saw those cute little kids with their bald heads before and their wigs in the 'after' pictures. My heart melted. I closed my laptop, grabbed my keys, phone, and wallet and was off to find a salon. Since I usually just go to Great Clips for the 9.99 hair trim once every two years I figured I'd go a little more upscale. I ended up at Pink Mullet Salon in Franklin with a rockstar stylist. I didn't tell anyone I was doing it, not even my husband! So check out the before and after! I miss my hair but it'll grow back. And to think some little girl will have long blond wavy hair just makes me smile:)

Before Picture-this was taken a few months ago so it was actually longer then this.